Dax – PTSD

So now what
This pain is too much
The Screams of the people make music in my head and listens to tough
So I must

Wipe my mind everything I saw in that church
Suppress all these feelings even though that they hurt
I don’t understand how you could let this happen God I wanna know why you even let that man on earth
I believe that this life is by you and whatever you choose is the best
I believe in the choices you make even though they may hurt and effect
I’m just human I don’t understand you I know you are very complex
What should I go next my thoughts cannot connect my PTSD shakes me and leaves me depressed
In the back of my mind theres a place that I know full of sorrow
When I think of times my aniexty fills what is hollow
I don’t know when it’ll go away
But I hope it’ll go away
I just pray I feel better when I sleep and wake up tomorrow

Left foot right foot keep walking
Left foot right foot keep walking
Don’t look back your past is haunting demons creeping always stalking
In that church I got down crawling
Couldn’t not stop my eyes from balling
Children screaming, bodies falling
Keeps on shooting bullets hawking
Some one help us plz just stop him
Why’s he laughing he’s been plotting
Says get up I hear death calling
I stood up and started walking
We locked eyes and he was smiling
Shot himself i saw him dying

Adrenaline was in my system I cudnt stop I had to go
But I just knew that if I made it I’d get out and praise to the lord

Now I’m walking on this Sunday and I just hope I make it home

I was walking home on a Sunday
I was walking home on a Sunday
I was walking home on a Sunday
I was walking home on a Sunday